This past week, my personality has been a STRONG force in my life. 

Isn’t it always, one might ask?

No. 

I am working on befriending my personality and gently telling it to rest when it wants to COMPLETE A PROJECT TODAY!!! Or when there is something I DON’T KNOW and I need to understand it. 

I have been creating a website and a blog. 

I had one before, but it did not really suit my personality.  So, after doing some research and talking to some people I trust, I decided to create a new one – on a new platform that suits my personality better.

There are A LOT of back-end things that need to work in order for a website to work – and in order for it to speak to other platforms.  If that sounds like Greek to you, just imagine how it sounded to me.  I am a counsellor/coach/encourager – not a techy person.

So, there were a couple of things I COULD NOT FIGURE OUT!!! 

I Googled. 

I You-Tubed.

I emailed for help.

But none of it provided the answers I wanted.  There was obviously a one and a zero that were not properly aligned so my website was NOT DOING WHAT I WANTED IT TO!!!

And then, after not being able to sleep -because the solution was percolating SOMEWHERE in my brain, -at 2 am on Saturday morning, the answers came to me. 

So, I got up.  And I FIXED it!!!  I worked until 4 in the morning, and it WORKS!!!!

God made me to be a curious person.  And, He also made me want to UNDERSTAND things.  Not being able to understand drives me crazy!  And that is where He is working on me. 

In the process of trying to understand, God is gently guiding me to find rest.  Sometimes, the rest comes in the form of baking, or making meatballs, or going to visit a loved one. 

Sometimes, it is in spending time with Him, or going for a walk, or gardening.

God’s timeline is not negotiable.  It is perfect.  I see that as I look back at my life.  I don’t always see it as I look forward.

Making friends with my personality and the way God has painstakingly created me, has allowed me to feel less anxious, less stressed, and definitely more joyful.

I am a work-in-progress.  Sometimes, I am ok with it and I wait patiently for God to reveal the next steps.

But sometimes, I wish God would hurry up – just a little. 

What do you think?